hey there babies
today is 6dp5dt (6 days past our 5 day transfer). you have been in my belly for almost a whole week now. i’ve been talking to you a lot lately. just asking you to please stay with us! i’ve also been praying a whole lot! just sort of talking to god letting him know that we are ready for you, but that if it isn’t our time to please help me understand why and to bring peace to my broken heart. your dad has talked to you also. he actually thinks that there are three of you in there. he thinks that we got pregnant with one of you on our own (a boy) and then transferred two of you after. it’s really cute. he has been amazing. keeping me calm and positive. he asks me how I’m feeling and has been doing a lot around the house. he kissed my belly a few times and stuck out his finger and told you, “you better stay in there, or else!” we are really excited and just hope to god that you will be joining our family!
i’ve been trying my best not to over think things. trying to not google too much about symptoms and what other people are feeling. i had read a lot of posts about all of these women with all these symptoms before day 3 and i was starting to get really sad. then that night i started to feel a little something. thanks for that 😉 i also have a hard time in the morning because i don’t feel much. in fact, today was especially difficult because i felt like the small symptoms that i had were starting to disappear. so i decided to not eat breakfast and let myself get pretty hungry. now i’m not feeling that great so i’m hoping that it is because you are in there. i think that anyone who has tried for so long to start a family wishes they felt every symptom in the world. just the other day i was telling your dad and your granny that i wish i spent most of my time by the toilet getting sick. your granny said we should get that in writing! haha. i know that if that happened i would be miserable, but anything to let me know that you are there and growing strong!
i have been terrified to test. i think i am just so nervous that it will be negative. however, i think i will still be nervous if it is positive because then i will know you are there and i will be so nervous to lose you! i’m trying my best to take it day by day, but it’s really hard. we will find out in just a few days what our results are… but your dad and i talked and i think we might test before just to ease our hearts and mind a little bit.
we love you both so much already!